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A Sense of Resolution

Some days, I wonder how healthy it is the things I share on the Internet; then I weigh the thoughts I have kept to myself the last calendar year and the ones I have let slip fleetingly from my fingers. Equally, they seem balanced, but pleasantly (or unpleasantly) unfiltered.  A little over a year ago, I wrote "Closure"; a blog where I ruminated on my lack of understanding for "why". Albeit not my best writing, it was a good mile-marker for the now - the places I have fortunately traveled in life, physically and metaphysically.  Years ago, after my first gut-wrenching break up, as in the first one which left me feeling as if a hole the size of Manhattan had been blown through my chest, I put a wallpaper on my phone which said "you're not a part of their journey and that's OK". Last year, I struggled with this. This was the push for my "why". The drive to have a better grasp on the thought process of someone else. Would I still love to know...

Some Days There are No Words, Only Tears

I can smell fall coming; a slight cooling to the air around me. As I sat outside watching P & B run yesterday evening, their brother at the vet following surgery to remove from his stomach and intestines a pompom off one of my blanket he decided to eat, the air smelled like home - like a place forever embedded in and on my heart. Memories of times long gone flooded my mind.  Now as the air around me warms this morning heading into the afternoon, I look at the houses around me; tucked away, safe, in an Alabama neighborhood. I speculate and make assumptions about their inhabitants, knowing little to nothing about who my neighbors are and how their lives may have been shaped 20 years ago this morning. Shouts of which team to support in typical Saturday football contests and the whirr of lawn mower motors fill the air around me; without pausing, today would seem typical, but, I sit, crying on my back porch. My neighbors equally unaware of how a day 20 years past changed my life and...